Seven years ago.
Seven years ago today I was anxiously awaiting the moment my first child would enter this world and take his first breath.
Seven years ago today my friend was watching her child exit this world as she took her final breath.
As I was preparing to say hello to my child for the very first time, my friend was saying goodbye to her’s.
For my friend Carrie …..
My heart breaks for you today much as it did on that day seven years ago.
I imagine there is no end to the grief, the pain, the heartbreak.
I don’t know what it must be like to walk in your shoes. And, is it okay to tell you that I never, ever want to know?
Is there any silence more deafening than the silence created by the absence of one of our babies? (Especially one as loud as your’s.) 😉
She was so loved. By so many.
But there is no love like a mama’s love. The only love greater than a mama’s love is the love our Heavenly Father has for each of His children.
I know that He is good and I know that His love for her is great but still …. I am so sorry that she is not here with you.
I am so sorry she is not here to go shopping with you. I am sorry she is not here to watch old movie musicals with you. And I am sorry she is not here to watch Sandra Lee’s Semi Homemade with you.
I know she is with Him. I know this would not have happened, could not have happened unless it was His plan. But I can’t begin to comprehend how this could be His plan.
The Bible tells us that God works all things together for the good of those who love Him. I believe that.
But how can losing her be good?
God says that He has plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. I believe Him.
But how is losing your child not harmful? How are you supposed to have hope when your child doesn’t have a future?
I don’t know. I don’t have any answers; I only know answers can only ever be found in Him.
I do believe that He is good and faithful and trustworthy. I do believe that His love for us is wider and longer and higher and deeper than we will ever be able to grasp.
I do believe that your girl was a blessing directly from Him to each of us. I know that she was one of the greatest gifts He has given me personally.
She was the brightest, shiniest, sparkliest, most vibrant and vivacious star that He blessed us with.
But she was not here long enough. She left much too soon.
As Shakespeare said:
“All the world’s a stage, And all the men and women merely players; They have their exits and their entrances …”
I just wish her exit hadn’t been written so quickly. I wish the Author of life would have written her into more of the pages of our lives.
I love you, my friend. And I am praying for you and your people ….. always.
I just found the following performance from CJ’s Second Act (more information on that below the video) last year. Thank you to my beautiful Davis for this gift. I love you so much.
And thank you Amanda for recording and sharing this moment. I love you so much.
I have been so blessed with all of my “little women.”
CJ’s Second Act is a celebration of CJ’s life held every year on her birthday, June 9. If you would like to know more please check out the facebook page at:
All proceeds from CJ’s Second Act fund an arts scholarship at Fred T Foard High School in her name. Donations for the scholarship can be sent to:
Fred T Foard High School
Attn: Leslie Overcash
3407 Plateau Road
Newton, NC 28658