“No one has ever done more to show you that you were unloved than God has done to show you that you are loved.” ~ Beth Moore
Yesterday there was supposed to be a video here on the blog, one that explained the marriage study that Greg and I have chosen to do. One that we committed to do for 5 weeks. But it didn’t happen. But for good reason, I choose to believe.
We did meet this weekend intending to study the words of a man who encourages our marriages to be better. But then, life.
We shared pain and trouble this weekend. We gave examples, told stories. We worshipped the only One we know that can help. All of us. Even you.
See, you may not be struggling in your marriage but I wouldn’t look away too soon. There are plenty of other relationships had in life than just the one that is sealed with an “I do.” And unfortunately, many of us carry the same bondage into all of them.
“Christ’s bride is ill with unbelief. We don’t recognize the illness because most of us have suffered with it all our lives.” ~ Beth Moore
The unbelief that we’re talking about? God’s unfailing love. I know, I know. We sing “Jesus Loves Me” on the altars growing up, we buy jewelry and bumper stickers proclaiming John 3:16, and most of us will even raise our hands in praise when songs of His love pour out from church stages. Surely this is all proof that we believe in God’s love? Right? Wrong.
Of course, just like with most things, these reminders and actions are good and uplifting. But they don’t prove a thing. You see, we can participate in all the marriage studies that we want, attend as many church services as we can, and read through our bibles in a year but unless we have overcome our unbelief, we will still struggle. Our homes will still fall apart. Our minds will always steal our peace. Others will continue to define who we are. And pain will always affirm what you think you know, what you believe.
My friends, my heart is so heavy for us to have a life changing revelation today, I feel like I’m dragging it behind me. Oh, I tried to make a video yesterday. I tried to smack the enemy in the face with the truth. But tears and sorrow and heartache for friends and family, for you, and my God for myself, overwhelmed me.
We can take steps to rebuild relationships. We can move forward in life’s journey with fresh starts. We can take on new adventures. But we will always carry the same baggage around with us until we lay it at the cross and fully receive the love of a Savior who bled and died for our very mistakes and sin that we filter everything through.
“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8
So you know that unforgivable sin you committed in years past that haunts your every thought? Covered. That life altering mistake made yesterday that has brought your world to an end? Covered. The resentment for the one that hurt you as a child or even today? Covered. That repeated addiction that has you in bondage? Covered. It’s all covered. Nothing will ease the sting of a choice made other than the blood of Christ. How? Unfailing love.
Who has always provided, even when we didn’t ask or want it? Who thinks about us constantly and collects all of our tears in the dark night? Who wants to pour out blessings and demonstrations of His love? Who constantly pursues us? Who sent His only son to bleed to death so we could be washed white as snow? Who wants us to spend eternity in a place that knows no more sorrow and pain? God. A Holy God that loves you and me. A love that will never fail.
My prayer is that today, you would take your eyes off of those who have hurt you, those that need to pay. I pray that the memories from the past that continue to damage and the sin that completely entraps you, will no longer define you. I pray that your habits, your perfection, your checklists will fall away and that you will fully receive the grace of God. I pray that the fear that chokes you and the mental anguish that steals your rest will diminish in the revelation of an unfailing love. One that is greater than I can offer and that anyone else can give. Believe it. Receive it.
“Belief is not a feeling. It’s a choice. We may live many days when we don’t feel loved or lovely; but in spite of our emotions, we can choose to take God at His Word.” ~ Beth Moore
God breathed scripture doesn’t lie. We easily believe that our Creator sculpted the majestic mountains and hung the stars, yet we don’t believe He could unconditionally love us. One might beg to differ because they are a believer. But do will still live defeated? Does the overflow of our hearts sound like we understand His unfailing love? Do we extend grace and forgiveness like we have been given? Do we hide behind unworthiness and shame standing in the pews at church or isolate ourselves because of guilt? I truly believe that until we completely accept the unfailing love of God, we will always struggle. Always. God help us all to heal from within and understand the weight and meaning of Your sacrificial love. It is for you. It is for me. And no one or no thing can take it away. Ever.
And then, we can love others.
“Your love, O lord, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies. Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains, your justice like the great deep. O lord, you preserve both man and beast. How priceless is your unfailing love! Both high and low among men find refuge in the shadow of your wings.” Psalm 36:5-7