Today’s words have been in the making for almost 17 years. Yes my friends, you read that right. You see, only my Father in Heaven and of my heart could have known the weight of my fingertips this morning as I tell the world of His goodness and faithfulness. Only He could have had a mind-blowing plan that would unravel to prove scripture true and one that could wash away the pain of a little girl’s aching heart. Did I mention that my Daddy is a Sovereign King? Don’t be jealous. My daddy can be your daddy. In fact, He’s waiting for you to call out Abba, Father too.
But when the fullness of time had come, God sent forth his Son, born of a woman, born under the law, to redeem those who were under the law, so that we might receive adoption as sons. And because you are sons, God has sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, crying, “Abba, Father!” So you are no longer a slave, but a son, and if a son, then an heir through God. Galatians 4:4-7
Many years ago, I allowed words to pierce my ears and crush my heart that would ignite a messy, bloody battle that was impossible to contain. But I know that it was in that fiery war and smoke-filled horizon that Jesus became more than just a glimpse but instead, a Father. It was there on the battlefield that my thirst for living water became undeniable and it was there on that same field that I found Him.
“Melissa, you need to grieve your dad as if he died. He’s never returning. You’ll never have answers. You’ll never see him again. He’s dead to you.”
Those piercing words. This truth that I did not want to hear. As I sat in a college professor’s office and vomited out the pain of losing my daddy years before and the torment of trying to figure out why or how, she calmly spoke the words above and told me to move on. Unfortunately, it would take years of wrestling with bitterness and resentment and anger and dare I say the stench of hate before I would collapse at the foot of the cross. But I did. Wounded and exhausted, I finally allowed my pain to unravel as gauze from a cut that just wouldn’t heal and breathe in the relief of a crimson love letter. Did I mention that in all these years I was a believer? Oh how foolish of me to live on borrowed faith and a Sunday morning attendance record rather than my own personal relationship with Jesus Christ. Don’t make the same mistake friends.
This past weekend, to the beat of a nervous heart, I sang Happy Birthday to my dad. The same dad that a teacher once told me I would never see or hear from again. The same dad that didn’t get to walk me down the aisle and the same dad that I longed for so desperately during a broken marriage. The same dad that was suppose to be dead to me. But God.
Beloved, let me tell you if you don’t know. When you finally believe that God is dad and that the blood bought scripture of forgiveness is a command, miracles will happen. Loving my earthly daddy is easy because of the steadfast love of King Jesus. Forgiveness is easy because daily, I need forgiving too. Healing is found in the gospel and reward is provided in the sacrifice. Abundance overflows and hard hearts melt away. The impossible becomes possible and the goodness of God is undeniable.
But Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26
For over a year now, God has been weaving together the heart of an abandoned little girl with the heart of a distant father and it is good. How it has all unfolded is nothing short of a miracle and is owed its on post in its entirety for another day. But what you need to read today is this. God is faithful. God is trustworthy. God is enough. And when He becomes enough, healing begins and everything else becomes a bonus.
Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me. Philippians 4:11-13
And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. To our God and Father be gory forever and ever. Amen. Philippians 4:19-20
Can you believe that love has been exchanged and grace has been extended with the man whom I haven’t seen or heard in almost 17 years? Yep, that’s my God. That’s my Dad for you. And the man on the other end of the phone? Yep, he’s my dad too. A dad that owes me nothing because my Dad is enough. His blood has covered it all. An earthly dad that is easy to love because blood ran red for us all. God is good. Taste and see.
Oh, taste and see that LORD is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him! Psalm 34:8
I don’t know what it is that has cracked your heart wide open today but what I do know? God is enough. I can’t promise that your broken relationship will be restored or that your job will be given back or that your mother’s death won’t hurt anymore, but I can promise that when God says He will comfort, He will. When God says He is faithful, He is. When God says He protects, He does. When God says He is enough, He is enough. Everything we read in scripture about Him is true and when you finally exhale control of the situation and stop clinging to the familiar pain of your broken heart, God will become enough.
For the word of the LORD is upright, and all his work is done in faithfulness. Psalm 33:4
And it’s in that satisfaction where miracles unfold. Forgiveness happens. Reconciliation starts. Peace is found. Love is restored. Beauty for ashes. It’s all beautiful.
Today is the day beloved. Just let go and trust in Jesus already. Don’t just say you trust Him so you can get something, trust Him so that you can rest. And when you start to doze off in the goodness of who He is, you finally understand that there’s nothing more that you need. And then, the fog is lifted. The cracks are gone. The pain doesn’t sting anymore. And for me, two daddies. Two dads to love and two dads that love me. Just as I am.
Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever never. Amen. Ephesians 3:20